Death in Aldeburgh
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The old friends are assembled in the Red House, are asked to come and voice a brief farewell, to pitch him their unbroken pure laudamus: the one whom he blazed out, though she was ill with nerve disease, the one he brusquely sacked for questioning the joint imperious will, the one who had not shown sufficient tact in telling jokes, the one who stood and eavesdropped on his practising. All those friendships wrecked the ebb reveals to him, like small roles grouped for one of his finales, but not singing, just smiling, thinking, ‘Ben, they never stopped us loving you, those crushing waves and stinging rebuffs, that icy undertow, each storm, each murderous calm. We kept on bringing our scrofulas for your touch to transform – and you would rise and glow and wave creation’s spring tide across our skins, your light, your warmth ripening above these manuscript horizons to light the steep grey shingle of your moods and stir our mid-life mill-pond with your passions.’ |